November 2010
1 post
Contemplating
Lately I’m not dreaming, so what the point in sleeping? It’s just that at night, I’ve got nowhere to hide. To the sleepless this is my reply, I will write you a lullaby.
School is making it harder for me to sit down and write. I truly miss it and I’m going insane. My goal is to write every day so I can get back on the same page with myself…if that even makes...
August 2010
1 post
July 2010
5 posts
“I guess your kind of truth is just the ghost of your lies.”
– “It’s Cool, We Can Still Be Friends”- Bright Eyes
I READ INTO THINGS: I know I am not alone in this.... →
I know I am not alone in this. Plenty of people love the wrong person. Or maybe the right person but at the wrong time because those suckers, they come back later. But then you don’t have romantic feelings for them by then because you’ve spent a great deal of energy getting yourself to think of…
WOW. Could not have said it better myself. Damn.
“Since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I’m so moving on...”
– “Since You Been Gone”-Kelly Clarkson
crash
myblisslikethis:
like a car wreck
i can’t look at you
and i can’t look away
i cant go
and i can’t stay.
tweak
I wanna be an astronaut, get high.
Break the barrier of sound into the sky.
Just wanna be free,
from the confines of gravity.
—playradioplay!
My head is swimming with thoughts right now. So much to say but too many other ideas slow down the thought process…if that makes sense. My current obstacle is getting over the bullshit my ex put me through. My goal is to let it go;...
June 2010
2 posts
buried myself alive...time to uncover
I’m letting me be myself. I refuse to apologize for any part of my personality that offends people. Because I’m sick of getting stepped on, of being used, of being dragged through the mud. I’m too nice and generous for my own good. I put others before myself, only to get pushed and pulled around by them for their amusement. I’ve been too naive, and it sucks to realize it,...
April 2010
4 posts
What's gonna happen to all of us? →
“…Seems like I’ve done something wrong. Let that punishment come, hide the sun, I don’t give a fuck.”
I listen to this song when I’m in the acceptance/breakdown phase of a realization or event.
“You know, it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments in...”
– One Tree Hill (via kari-shma)
Because I’m so in love with this quote. It’s perfect.
don't tell me I'm wrong
What am I afraid of? I don’t know. I’m paranoid; the future freaks me out. I don’t know if I’ll make the right decisions, or if I’ll be able to forge my own path….scratch this, I know I can. I’m done blaming others and placing blame outside myself. I’m stepping up.
I’m working on finding wholeness within myself. I am looking within to find my...
You wanted this.
You got it.
I define my own lines.
I operate outside of the boundaries.
Life is what you make it,
so I’m making mine a trip
p
p.
Expand your mind, the possibilities are i n f i n i t e.
March 2010
1 post
rescue me
The way I cope with things is by avoiding them or having a distraction. I can carry on through the day just fine, but once I’m alone with my thoughts, I lose it.
I NEED positivity and support right now. But those are the exact things I must give right now. Two of the closest people to me need me to be strong for them and help them pick up the pieces. Struck by this, along with my...
February 2010
5 posts
I'm on the pursuit of happiness
and I know everything that shine ain’t always gonna be gold. I’ll be fine once I get it; I’ll be goood.
I am in love with this song.
//.
dropdropdrop
I feel magic in my veins sometimes
I want to roll around in a meadow of poppies
Watch diamonds glisten in the sky
Listen to your heart beat and talk about life
Some things mean everything, some nothing at all
Hold me like...
easy/lucky/free...I wish
Did it all get real? I guess it’s real enough….
I want to escape. I feel like I’m standing still while my life is fast-forwarding before my eyes. I have to shake this feeling. I need to regain control and get back to business.
It’s just harder as my heart breaks more and more….
[sun’s gonna rise, never forget it.]
:'(
Everything I touch turns to shit.
Everyone I try to love won’t hear of it.
Now my hands are overfull of things I’d like to give. Does anybody want it? Does anybody want it?
Does anybody want…me?
I fear dying alone. I feel doomed before I even try. I hate days like these.
January 2010
13 posts
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“I cannot live, I can’t breathe unless you do this with me.”-AWA
//I want this forever//
Fishnets are hot.
This album makes me elated and depressed at the same time. I’m intoxicated by it.
“This is how it works. You’re young until you’re not. You love until you don’t. You try until you can’t. You laugh until you cry. You cry until you laugh. And everyone must breathe until their dying breath….This is how it works. You peer inside yourself...
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who...”
– Chuck Palahniuk
(via kari-shma)
“I don’t have it in me to love you unless you’re in me, loving me.”
– quoted in the blog of Nina Semen
I wish I was profound
I hate the feeling that everything I do is miniscule. That it doesn’t really matter in the long run. That everything dies anyway so I may as well get used to complacency.
Snap out of it. There’s gotta be more to life. As of right now I’m on a journey of self-discovery. Except I don’t know how to begin it. Or does not knowing how to begin mark the beginning? Either way I...
...but I'm not the only one →
Give peace a chance.
Because I don't want to remain tired and...
hope floats.
it’ll happen.
daydream believer. always.
mind is a razorblade
Fuck promises.
youliedyouliedyoulied ohmy. so did I…
It hurts to say goodbye to someone I considered a close friend.
You never listened to a word I’d say, anyway.
Speed it up. Rail it. Start it all up again.
This time I’m watching you fail from the sidelines. I refuse to help or care. I’m becoming calloused anyway.
Watch me flourish. Watch me shine. Watch me bloom.
...
& LIL WAYNE SAYS:
loveisacabaret:
pussy
pussy
pussy
and weed n alcohol seem to satisfy us all. DAMN. N every time I think of stayin’ wit her, she bring her friend around n make a nigga reconsider.
Lil Wayne has my permission any day of the week. yum.
fuhgettaboutit
All I have are theses three words for you: Go to hell. Only I mean it. Deep, fiery pit. Plenty of suffering and pain. Just what you caused me. I’m sick of watching this take over my life. You are both stupid and pathetic and are going nowhere. One of you will end up back in jail…sooner than later, I’m sure. The other will die a lonely coke whore, left with nothing but painful...
“..you can do what you wanna do cause I do me and I do it real well and yes, I’ma...”
– Lil Wayne (via geestatus)
cute without the e
I was the girl living her life through Taking Back Sunday songs.
I’m actually pretty happy about how my life is turning out thus far. I’m getting there. :)
What does it feel like to be new?
“the new is in, the new is in, I’m feeling better already. I shed my skin, I shed my skin, my head is starting to steady.”
I gained a new perspective since 2010 began. My goal is to discover myself more, and to define who I really am. A few painful experiences from the past few months have been roadblocks to my happiness. I am no longer going to allow petty things to get in the...